I had NO IDEA just how much sabotage ruled my life.
For years, decades, it held me back and in it's grip. One step forward, two steps back. And it's slippery fucker because it presents in the most subtle and insipid ways.
You need to be Columbo to catch it.
Sabotage is the biggest threat to your most amazing life, relationship, business, career, health, $$$ fill in the blank.
It operates in every aspect of your life and its most active when you start up-levelling. The slightest whiff that you want change, that you're done with the struggle and ready for what deep down your soul is fucking aching for, and the saboteur stirs and springs into action.
What makes the saboteur so hard to detect is its ability to disguise itself. It often shows up as the voice of reason. But it's every excuse you make that keeps you from change.
- It's not the right time.
- I'm too tired.
- I don't know how.
- I'm not sure if it will work.
- I won't be able to do x, y or z, because...
- It's too hard.
- It will take too long.
- I don't have the skills.
- I don't know enough.
- I don't have enough experience.
- I need more time.
- I need to understand more.
- I need more information.
- I need to get x, y, or z out of the way first.
- I don't have enough support.
- I don't have the energy right now.
- I've got too many bills.
- I'm too busy.
- My boss asked me to work this weekend.
- I need to help my partner/mum/best friend.
- My dog got sick.
- I just moved.
- It doesn't make any sense to do it now.
- It's too irresponsible I need to deal with x first.
- I'll do it tomorrow, next week, next month, when I get back from...
These are just a few of the many excuses the saboteur will deliver and you might think that every excuse on that list is quite a reasonable. What you need to notice though is that each excuse serves one purpose, to stop you doing the thing you most need to do.
Sabotage is an intellectual process and the smarter you are the more you do it. Sabotage is your brain stepping in with whatever rationale it can employ to protect you from the change that deep down you seek but are too afraid to make happen.
The saboteur's greatest fear is your empowerment, and you'll notice that every excuse you make ultimately leads you back to and keeps you stuck in the situation that's most keeping you feeling powerless.
Your relationship drama, your weight, your health, the job you hate, your financial situation....
You see sabotage is a fear based survival and protection mechanism and it keeps you in repeating patterns of unconsciousness that although you may want to break free of, are familiar and therefore safe.
The fear doesn't want the pattern to end, because you've lived the pattern so long you believe its keeping you safe and surviving. The opposite is actually true. The pattern and the fear are typically killing your spirit from the inside out.
See where it's true.
You will need a strong psyche to overcome sabotage and most never will because they don't know what it takes to get control of the mind fast enough and long enough to end the sabotage and alchemise the pattern into something powerful, and honestly quite magical.
Because what the saboteur doesn't want you to know is that you are actually a magician.
You're a manifestor, you already manifest constantly, more you do it unconsciously and so you don't even realise that you're already using your power to bring into the physical the things you don't want.
And every time you try to reverse this process, sabotage stops you with one or more of the excuses on the list and you fall back into the unconscious pattern long before you've managed to bring the shift into reality.
And this just affirms to you all over again that you are in fact stuck and that life will never change.
Sabotage also manifests in your physical body. I'm sure you've noticed at some point that you got sick when you were on the verge of change or trying to make a shift. And you ended right back where you started and feeling more defeated than ever.
Ending sabotage is everyone's challenge, you need to first see all the ways it shows up in your life and discover how to alchemise the pattern as and when it strikes.
What its keeping you from is more powerful than you can ever imagine, but getting to that power is no easy journey. And its very hard to do it alone.
Its so ironic that we're here to piece together the lost parts of ourselves and know our true divine nature and power. THAT IS OUR PURPOSE OF LIFE.
And that should be the most important thing to us. we should be throwing everything we have at it. And yet we mostly ignore it, spending our time, energy and resources on material shit that brings fleeting happiness and that we even forget we have, don't really want, or need.
And when it comes to ourselves we have every excuse under the sun as to why we just can't do it right now. And instead we settle for staying anxious and secretly miserable and bored in our half lit lives.
And THATS the power of sabotage.
If you're ready to kick the fucking ass of the inner saboteur chocking the joy and blocking the magic from your life, I have a couple of spots left on Mind Masters. Pm for details, and btw you might just want to check-in and notice what the voice of your saboteur is saying...